MotoCat (2007)
Well, I quit smoking pot again this weekend, so I guess that's a step in the right direction ...
I am amazed at how quickly I fell back into a familiar routine after 500+ days of not touching the stuff.
I am somewhat less amazed at how quickly I then gained weight, stopped focusing on my writing, and became more anti-social.
Now I suppose I have to face the music by going back to Weight Watchers and assessing the damage.
This one's gonna leave a mark.
*Sigh*
p.s. Picture is totally unrelated except for the fact that I took it on the same day I stopped smoking again.
9 comments:
You're back at it - that's the important thing.
C
We are all hoping for your success. I want to read many things from you in the future!
Good for you! You probably don't want to hear this, but you display the classic signs of an addict. It's not a question of whether you can stop for long periods of time, but whether the behavior takes over your life despite your best intentions. You can find help at www.na.org. Good luck to you, K, you're on the right track.
It's scary to think how quickly one falls back into routine.
I find that the hardest thing about giving up...changing the old habits, and routine of it all.
I hope this means we get to see more of you here! I do miss your regular posts.
angel
Good on you...you are here for excellence...you are here for excellence...
good luck!
Good on ya. The nice thing about whatever damage you will notice is that it can be repaired.
Your motorcycle. I has it.
Excellent Karen, I am so glad to hear this. I don't for a minute believe that pot is harmless, and the fact that you can lucidly and (seemingly impartially) observe its impact on your psyche is great. I am no scientist, but I did see a recent article about pot's contribution to mental illness, schizophrenia i believe. There is no free ride; every decision has a consequence, every action a reaction.
You are in my prayers.
Kathy's brother.
p.s. i live in San Diego now... let's get together sometime! i havent had a good debate in a long time. :-)
Everybody seems to agree that pot is not good for you. It may also be that it may have been more harmless before, but now you need more lucidity to become more you, and since that's really the job of the human, the pot is probably not helping. I never liked smoking pot. I did it hoping that I would like it. My thing was drink, and I eventually reached the conclusion that while other people were drinking more than I was, the drink was causing a chronic loss of lucidity and therefore making it harder for me to become me in the way that I wanted to become me: loving, attentive, strong, flexible, articulate. Nice to read you again.
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